Wednesday 18 December 2013

COUNTING DPO :CYCLE 2 (9NOV2013)








DPO7:Loya .no cramps
DPO 8:CRAMP.kekadang rasa macam nak period..kekadang raaa macam tak..kejap kejap rasa mencucuk-mencucuk..kejap kejap ok..kejap kejap sakit..hopefully berjaya lekat la kali ni aminnnnn
DPO10:Loya,chest pain macam ada angin banyak lam  body...temperature lupa amek sebab kt kampung.
DPO 11: SAME
DPO 12: SAME
DPO13:SUHU DAH DROP FROM 36.7 TO 36.2. period is ondwayyyyy sebab suhu turunn..





KITA TRY LAGI IN CYCLE 3!


CAIYOKKKKKKK!!!







Wednesday 4 December 2013

Depression vs Stress

MOst of the people feel sad and miserable few times in their day or life..but how many feel stress almost all of the time and stop enjoying the things that u used to like?


this is the part where the stress have escalated to become a depression.

i have to admit.

i am having a depression at the moment.

it was so worrying up to the stage that i keep on feel hungry..and of course EATING double than the amount that i used to eat..



I started having insomnia ..i can only sleep after 12 or 1 then wake up in the middle of the night ...blinking in the dark trying to get back to sleep ..


Usually if i feel stress..i tend to talk to someone about it and ask for their opinion.. i started not doing it anymore and just keep the emotion to myself..i dont go talk to my friends about it..

Usually  i talked about everything to my husband....if i feel sad...or feel down..or feel bad..i definitely will let him noe.

i have no idea why i stop doing that now..

And all of this have making me lose my grip..






Hopefully by pretending to be ok...i will feel ok..


Hopefully..








apala nasib badan

Apala nasib badan,
Bila cukup setahun kawin badan bagai di pam pam,
Lepastu rasa macam tak disayang,
Rasa dah tak cantik,
Rasa rendah diri,
Bukan tak diet..dah try,
Tapi lepas gugur haritu susah sangat berat nak turun,
Bila tengah diet period belum datang,
Disebabkan takut ada baby dalam perut,diet pon terbatal,
Bila kompem takde baby dalam perut,
Hasben pulak balik..tak sempat nak kurus..
Bila hasben balik..dia kurus tak lalu makan..
Bila dia balik..mestila banyak benda nak dimakan nya,
Siapa lagi nak teman makan kalau bukan isteri montel ni,
Kesudahannya makin naik pipi lengan perut semua ni..

Bukan tak sedar badan makin menggemuk,
Bila baju semua dah tak muat,
Bila pakai apa pun semua rasa sendat,
Bila client client tegur eh awak pregnant ke..?
Bila kawan kawan terkejut bila berjumpa,
Padahal baru 2 minggu tak bersua muka..


Alahai,
Apala nasib badan..
Hasben pun tak mesra lepas balik,
Dengan demam lagi,
Masing masing buat kerja sendiri..


Sungguh tak happy.

Thursday 21 November 2013

Michelle Soo Arys Pump Nak sewa atau beli pon boleh ;)

Harga:rm80 (sekali pos)

Kalau nak sewa ..almaklumlahh majlis kahwin sekali je..kasut heel memang xnak pakai lama lama kann..,boleh sewa kasut ni rm40 sekali sewa..

Nanti pulangkanla yee..
Cod:KL area atau Damansara/Sg Buuloh/PJ
SIZE:37
WARNA: MILKY PINK
TUMIT:4 INCI


Tak pernah pakai diluar rumah.

Memang brand new lah














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Friday 15 November 2013

Malas nak bangun

Malasnyaaaaaa nak bangun!!!!


And look at that sun rays!!

Kacaulaaa.sampai tembus my curtain!


Must-go-buy-another-curtain!!!


Shopping day is today!

Co hubby hensem balik in few days..Kena cantik jelita,fashion up to date dan kurys murus.

Ops.Kurus tu xmungkin.

Alamak.

Kena extr cantik la.baru dapat mengaburi kegemukness.

Happy weekend  yall!!!

Sunday 3 November 2013

My First BBT chart-Long follicular phase



Hi guys..i am still waiting for my next AF..This shou be the 2nd flow after misscarriage.But its not yet herr!It has been 35days since my last!

it seems longer than usual this time. dejavu dejavu but since i keep track of my BBT amd charted it...it feels a bit comforming and also a relieve to see the reason..


i have a very late ovulation this month.


Oh well..Dear Hubby is not here to fertilized the egg but we shall not get too sad about it..We still have plenty of times!

There were a few symptoms that are confusing though..

I thought that i was ovulating on 14 - 15 /10
On 20/10 : Pink spotting that on and off and stop on 23/10<----- i WAS HOPING THISBIS IMPLANTATION BLEEDING!

But then on  29th/10: i have brown spotting and on and off it cames and go everyday  until  last 2/11..

It was during this time ibsaw my graph showed my rprogesterone level is high..


Now i started to feels cramps like im about to have AF..we shall see in few days..Lets hope the graph keep  heading down so i can be a normal person who are trying to conceive again...:(

So dis is the explanation and recommendation that i get from Fertility Friend  apps:









Thursday 17 October 2013

I lost both my potential jewels of my life..but i m not giving up!

Yes.

1 conceived early Aug and another 1 conceived few days before i misscarriage..

7 weeks and 4 weeks.

1 maybe chromosomal problem (Allah know best why) and another 1 was chemical pregnancy thus explaining my non depleted hormones.

Dun give up hopes.

Keep praying.

Coz Allah listen. :)


With love,
Future mommy for another future twin :)

Monday 7 October 2013

HELLO KAWAN LAMA!

Kawan lama ai dah kembali!!!!


Say hello to negative UPT TEST!!






Ya Allah,terima kasih atas hikmah dan dugaan mu ni Ya Allah..


I do better next time..

sekarang ni plan 3 bulan ai adalah untuk healing,makan vitamins dan ready body untuk next pregnancy..

Tajuk blog ni pun 3 months project kan!!!!

Soo excited!

Thank u husband..for being here for me..

Thank you Allah for this gift !:)


Saturday 5 October 2013

Berapa lama HCG hormon berada di dalam badan selepas keguguran?

Ai tahu ramai ladies and mommy to be ( IN sha Allah) out there yang baru lepas keguguran dan menunggu-nunggu period pertama datang.

Ada jugak yang macam ai masih lagi tak putus asa..masih jugak monitoring hormon guna upt kit..dan upt kit masih tunjukkan positif.


Jangan risau.jangan saiko sorang-sorang.

Ai pun saiko jugak .rasa macam masih pregnant dan MASIH BERHARAP pregnant sebab family ada sejarah twin kan..

Tapi takkan selama-lamanya nak diselubungi pertanyaan.

Jadion 1/10/2013, ai pergi buat blood test kat Tropicana dan buat hcg blood test..


Kalau anda hamil, berikut adalah paras hormon hcg didalam badan..


Jadi keputusan ujian darah ai was 71...sooo pelik sebab ai baru lepas keguguran 4 minggu lepas..

Dr Arifah cakap..hormon awak lambat depletes..Bawak bersabar...

Masa ultrasound memang rahim betul betul 0...tetapi ai masih teruk loya dan mengalami breast pain yang teramat sangat..

Dr cakap "dinding rahim tebal macam nak period ni..tapi awak belum period kan.."

Ai said "belum"

Ai bagitau dia kerisauan ai kalau ai pregnant lagi sekali..so dia cakap nextweek datang buat blood test lagi sekali..

Pada 3/10/2013,ai mengalami cramp yang sangat luar biasa yang tidak tertahankan lagi..

Masa tu tengah temankan Zaf buat CME kat Pantai Ampang..

Ya Allah macam nak pengsan..loya teramat!

Masa pergi toilet tetiba nampak black blood kering dan likat atas pantyliner..


Mubgkinkah ni period???


Alhamdulillah selepas 33 hari keguguran...period ai datang..

Selepas 2 bulan tak period..period ni Astagfirullahalazim amatlah menyakitkan..

Nasib baik suami balik take care ai dan bagi sokongan moral..

Kalau tak..rasa stress ai mungkin berpanjangan..huhuhu.

Hari pertama period 3/10/2013: hitam,sedikit,tak berair..pakai pantyliner,sakit pinggang menyucuk nyucuk,loga,breast pain

Harikedua period 4/10/2013: Brownish,makin berair,pakai panyliner lagi,sakit makin kuat sampai nangis nangis

Hari ketiga period 5/10/2013 : Full speed red blood brown blood,tisu sebesar tapak tangan keluar tak sempat sambut dah jatuh dalam toilet semua menderu deru keluar...cramp dan sakit pinggang amplify tak terhingga hingga sampai kena makan paracetamol 665g setiap 4jam..


Banyaknya dugaan ai..

Takpe Allah..ikhlaskanlah..relakanlah..

Nanti bila preggie lagi sekali atau ai rasa ai preggie..nak jaga baik baik..tak nak dah melalui detik detik 33 hari yang pilu dan menyakitkan ini Ya Allah..

AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN..


Sunday 29 September 2013

POST MISSCARRIAGE

Some people might be saying "its enough to grieve.You should move on!!"



"Ya Allah,bersyukurlah ayeen..atleast hang boleh pregnant..ada orang sampai 7-8tahub kahwin xpernah conceive walau sekali pun!"


Who are u to judge how long im gonna grieve over my misscarriage?

I am the one feeling the pain..Let me move on when i WANT to move on..

Everybody deal with the lost of everything they love differently..i am no exception to that..


I am not a holy!i am not a being without feeling...i am just a lady grieving over her first misscarriage in her life..

my hubby was home for few days last week and we had a great time going on a short vacay..


He was so sweet to me all the time..Like he knew that i need to be happy..Like he knew that deep inside something is not yet normal with myself..

He treated me like a broken glass..careful and delicate..

i am so grateful to have a such wonderful person as my hubby...

He comforted me when i cried reminiscing over that short sweet conversation we had before baby dot bid farewell..

I am now at 4 weeks post misscarriage..

I will be ok only when i conceive again..or when i got my first period post nisscarriage..


 So rite now i am checking my hcg level to see whether it has totally gone...


So it looks like another pregnancy still holding on..atau my hcg just naughty tak nak depletes.

Jadi i need to bersabar lagi..i dont think period will come anytime soon..

Ohhhhh sungguh pancaroba!

Friday 20 September 2013

Sabar ajelahhh

Tetiba naik notification ni kat phone.OMG.sabarlah duhai hati...i almost recover from tje past but the past keep coming back to remind me "please dont forget ne"..


Anyway..on other hand..hubby is home!

For a week or few days only..tapi i tetap happy..sebab its better seeing him.macam ni than to suffer for few weeks .haha

jom..tengah siap siap nak.pergi Gold coast Morib!!

Wednesday 18 September 2013

UPT masih positif selepas keguguran..

Hai yall..

Selalunya bila upt test positif..kita akan happy giler..

Tapi selepas keguguran..melihat upt y masih positif adalah sesuatu yang amat memeritkan..

1)Sebab ai nk TTC lagi
selagi hcg masih ada dalam body..selagi tu la ai xkan berovulasi
.kalau xde telur..cemane nak TTC??
2)Dejavu..teringat masa 3 minggu penamtian kenapa upt masih -ve sedangkan period dah miss kan..Siap berteori maybe hormon imbalance kottt.Alih alih upt +ve !

Jadi sekarang ai  am monitoring my hcg level.

Sepatutnya kalau misscarriage..hcg tu akan pudar..pudar.dan semakin pudar..


Line no 1. (Paling atas):Hasil upt semasa malam ai misscarriage

Line no 2& 3: Line selepas seminggu misscarriage.(Boleh nampak line semakin pudar)
Line no 4: Line diambil harini..Aikkkk kenapa stronger ????

Ai pergi buat ultrasound dan Doc sahkan Rahim O..Doc suruh tunggu period datang orr kalau period xdatang datang lagi 3 minggu..datanf buat ultrasound lagi sekali..

Hmmmm.

Ada x kawan kawan ada pengalaman macam ni?Berapa lama nak tunggu hcg hilang from body?




Friday 13 September 2013

Resepi Sup Ikan Haruan Kering_Makanan Berpantang

Ai is boring makan ikan haruan kering goreng saja.

Jadi harini masak sendiri..



Bahan-bahan:

1.Bawang putih 3x
2.Bawang kecil 2x
3.Serai 1 batang
4.Ikan haruan kering
5.Lada hitam ditumbuk


Cara-cara memasak:

1.Rendam ikan haruan bagi lembut
2.Tumis bawang putih,bawang putih..Biar naik bau
3.Masukkan air
4.Masukkan ikan haruan kering
5.Masukkan serai.
6.Masukkan lada hitam dan garam secukup rasa.
7.Biar sampai masak la kan.

Bolehla buat makan sensorang..sob sob.


Berpantang bersendirian ni.

Hai la.

kbai.

Sunday 8 September 2013

In Memory of my Little Baby Dot



Hye Little Baby Dot..

Mommy is having a rest ..with abah by my side..He is still tired for having to travel from seato land for the sake of coming home and be with mommy..

Dont you sad..Both of us are not blaming you for decided to go before your time..

We guess you just want to go to a much much better place..

Of course we will be happy if you decided to stay...But God definitely have better plan for Mommy and Abah since He decided to take you away right?

We cant wait to receive it and we are grateful for any of HIS plan for all of us.
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My Little Baby Dot,
Mommy are still cringing in pain of rembering you..Sometimes when nobody around..  ust a few moments when mommy  pray to God..Mommy sure will be thinking of how beautiful my life and abah would be if you are still with us..
We were always not together-your abah and me..He got sooo many job..lining up thi y ear ..Both of us are still adjusting our life to it..

Sometimes mommy feels like you are still up there with God..And when the time is right..God will send you down to be with mommy again.

Mommy promise that Mommy will take a good care of myself and when a new body is formed..mommy will make sure mommy prep it healthy enough so God can blew you back inside..

Let all of pray that the time is near ok?

Till we meet again..

Hugs and Kissess from,
Mommy and Abah



Saturday 7 September 2013

My loving caring life companion..

It touched me when u made a splendid suprise during my study year..

you was in Qatar for few months and i thought you never coming back home when you called and said "sayang cuba tengok kat luar tingkap sekarang?"

i was  in my room on the 3rd Floor of 4th College UM.

I Was beyond shocked and of course...touched by your gesture sayang..

You did it again when i was back from US or UK (which i couldnt remember) .You ve waited for me at the arrival hall with a bouqet of roses...something that i never have imagined you to give!!!.And of course..im touched baby...


On our engagement day..you say something that make me laughed..it touched my heart so much that my heart still aching when i reminiscence it now..and Bullah captured the moment!

"Nape berseri seri sangat hari ni?"

Then later down the road..On our solemnization day ..you..suited up so handsomely with your carrot coloured baju melayu and GREEN sock..u cited the akad that makes me foreverly yours...it touches me straight to my heart and my bone..it still does sayang..trust me..

And now..when i told you ..you shouldnt come back home..that i can manage the pain..that i do not want to burden you with the pain and  with our loses..you keep on suprising me...you continue to shower me with love..with affection and with your responsibility towards me..

Cant wait to see you here sayang...even if its for few days..your loving thoughts ..thats what matter to me..

i love you..


Friday 6 September 2013

Cara memakai bengkung selepas keguguran

Harini first day berpantang di kampung..Balik rumah mak di Sg Limau sebab hasben ai offshore kan..

Niat di hati nak tidur rumah MIL FIL jugak tapi tula xdak transport.wuwuwuw

So MIL FIL dah datang ziarah bawak roti kering gula milo semua bagai..terharu sangat
..rasa disayangi ja.

sepanjang proses keguguran ni ai rasa bersyukur sebab Allah tunjukkan pilihan ai dalam berkawan..berkeluarga ni semuanya pilihan yang tepat dan baik..

Beruntung ai ..walaupun hasben yang baik dan loving tu xde disisi..tapi kawan2 dan famly dari both side xhabis habis bagi sokongan.

Anyway harini ai bertungku dengan Leesa Tungku Moden (mama Fie bagi).


Sebelah malam ni baru start berbekung.SIL kirimkan.melalui MIL n FIL.

Up to korang la nak berbekung atau tidak tapi ai bekung je walaupun MC dalam tempoh kurang dari 3 bln..

Lain orang lain cara berpantang.Sebab ai badan senang masuk angin la ai berbekung ni..

Mula2 dapat bekung dah konpius mcm mana nak pakaiiiii.

Nasib baik ada Mr Google!


Semoga berjaya la ai berbekung sampai 30hb.wuwuwuwuwuwwuwu

I kena pantang 40hari.hasben suruh.xnakkk wuwuwuwuw



Wednesday 4 September 2013

Berpantang_Day 4



Berstokin.

Mandi air panas.
Breakfast:Whole bread + susu Hi Goat @milo
Makan nasi putih-sayur sawi-ikan haruan kering goreng.
minum petang:Roti Pat sagi cicah milo panas
Makan malam:nasi putih-sayur sawi-ikan haruan favret.

Berat harini:56kg



Sekejap je dah drop.


Walaupun husband jauh di mata dekat di hati...ai beruntung ada bestfrens yang saaaangat saaangat baik..

Xkan jumpa dah sahabat sejati macam ni..Kawan2 zaman Sek Menengah yang membesar bersama..menggemuk bersama..

Hidup kami dipisahkan ruang dan jarak..ada yang jauh..ada yang dekat..ada yang ada famly sendiri..ada yang masih bujang..

Dari doktor ke inspektor polis ke research officer ke IT ke Sales..kami tetap masih berhubung..

Waktu senang kami memang bersama sama..tapi ai xpernah sangka waltu susah kawan2 ni akan setia bagi sokongan.moral dan sokongan mental hatta jadi tukang masak untuk ai hari hari.

Besarnya jasa kawan kawan..

Yang paling dekat Mama Fie la yang jaga makan.minum ai.masa berpantang..Yang paling jauh Alia  pula tiba tiba hantar Zinc Complex untuk ai ..

Siti tetiba datang bawa Virgin Olive Oil.

Najah Kc Kb Er Wati Zue bagi sokongan moral sebab masing masing dalam lesibukan seharian..

Rasa diri ni tak keseorangan lagi..

So ini makanan tambahan ai dalam berpantang ni..


Tq


Monday 2 September 2013

Berpantang_Day 1

2/9/2013

Harini ai ke Tropicana lagi...

Ada follow up checking dengan Dr Arifah untuk tengok samada ada lagi sisa sisa baby dot tertinggal kat dalam..

Sebenarnya harini pun rasa pelik..bangun tidur tadi rasa blank..terus pergi dapur minum milo lepas tu bukak peti ais tengok baby dot..


Hai la baby..harini mommy kena jugak panggil sesiapa untuk bawak baby dot dan pergi kebumikan kat kawasan perkuburan..
Mommy xde experience dalam hal hal.mcm ni tapi thanks to google..mommy dapat info:macam.mana nak kebumikan baby dot:





Mama Fie temankan ai pergi Tropicana.She is 6 months preggo and looking at her..i cant help to feel a bit like a loser..

She got a very handsome boboy Zidane who is 2 1/2 years old and is now expecting ..

She never plan for any of her pregnancy..

i on the other hand..Work hard for it..and  it does not go the way i want it to be..

Sometimes what we want is not being delivered the way we want it to be..I guess God is actually trying to say

Ayeen,im sorry i granted ur wish but took it back..It is not yet your time to be a mommy..Soon you will under
stand..I will give you something better to replace something that I have tool from u today..

i will God..Some day..Some day..



Alhamdulillah Dr Arifah said there is no.need for D&C  and that makes me feels relieved.

D&C cost  can be around 1k-3L depending on the hospital.

i was given antibiotic and Dr assured me that i can try to conceive again in 2weeks time or whenever i feel ready..

its actually really assuring when u noe there is nothing wrong with yourself..right after u misscarriage..

petang sket..Abg Jam dan Kak Dila datang untuk ambil baby pergi kebumi di kawasan perkuburan dekat Bukit Beruntung..

So bermula la hari pertama pantang..makan bubur..ikan haruan..dan sayur sawi saja.

Semua semua Mama fie dan Hani yang sediakan..

Hari Khamis ni ai balik kampung la.Xnak menyusahkan Mama Fie lagi dah..

Pernah x rasa macam normal..lepas tu tetiba rasa sedih?

berulang ulang kali?Thats how i feel today..

Hopefully perasaan ni akan beransur ansur tenang.Amin....

Sunday 1 September 2013

Miscarriage

Hi dearie,


I just got back from Tropicana Med Ctre..So the baby decided to go..

There is nothing else i can do about it.

Instead of blog hopping for what to eat and what not...what exercise to do..buku merah and all..

now i need to blog hopping about grieving...how to berpantang..how to sempurnakan my little baby and how to cope with loss..

Dear God,thank you for giving me what i really want..snd thank you for letting me feel like im the happiest person on earth for the past 2 days..

the journey is only 8months but the experience you gave me is  long more than i could imagined. i guess yoj must have prep me for something that i did not understand..yet..

i guess..i need time to understand the rainbow that will come after this rain..


Dear hubby,i m really sorry for putting u thru dis..i didnt reveal a lot of info to u cos i dun wantchu to feel the pain that i am feeling now..

Dear baby,mommy letchu go dear...tq for teaching me how to tkcre of myself better when i suspect that im preggie.the motherly instinct never goes wrong..i will do better next time..i love u..n i  am letting u go my sweet little dot..

When things do no turned out the way u want itto be...

I can handle this...



i can..


all is well..all is well..

i got heavy bleeding today.. Not sure the reason..All ive could ever think was if it will effect the possibilities if i am actuaaly pregnant..and wondering about  my tiny dot (if it is actually inside).

i did upt and its upsetting to see it goes back to being negative..

i hope for the best and i am a beliver that everything happened for a reason..

To my baby:"if u were there before and u are no longer there now..mommy just want to say tq for giving me 2 days that i would never forget in my entire life.U show me how everythingis possible.U gave me that confidence that ican be a mommy.that nothing is wrong with me..that it is always possible for me to be someone mother..Im sorry that our times together ended so fast.it could have been a wonderful journey for both of us and for abah....but God have better plan for u...for mommy..and for abah..dun worry about mommy..mommy will be allright..."

Saturday 31 August 2013

UPT YANG PENUH KETIDAKPASTIAN.HAHAHA


Tengokla.pakai UPT murah.dah penat habiskan duit berpuluh puluh ringgit dulu tapi asyik dapat negative je.

Sekarang pakai yang rm2.50 je. ;)


So sekarang kawan kawan mesti faham why do i feel so confused!!!!

30/8/2013: check petang around 3pm
31/8/2013: check pagi lepas bangun tidur.


So bak kata dear Fiqah  ai harap betullaaa xde False positive dalam UPT Test..

Hehehehe.


My hasben sempat lagi telefon sebelum berangkat..dan dia nak tengok sangat line yang ai test on 31hb..

Sempat lagi dia cakap "boleh tak lagi nak happy ni?"

Oh u so sweet my sayangggg ;)


So sekarang ni ai nak la treat myself like i am pregnant.Kalau xpregnant pun at least my body will be fit to receive a baby soon.


So sekarang ni dah start makan:

1)B complex Shaklee 1x
2)VCO  2X 1 hari
3)minum susu Hi Goat 1peket sehari.


Xsabar nak tunggu  for baby to grow lepas tu 3weeks or 4 weeks  from being a small tiny  to officially be a fetus!

Sekarang baru rasa sedap nak blog walking tengok apa amalan2 kawan2 blog yanf dah preggie yeahooooooooo!

Friday 30 August 2013

Your baby progress during the making of..



Laporan terkini

1-Husband xjadi pergi lastweek so dipinjamkan lagi kepada ai minggu ni.Harini dia dalam standby mode incase dapat call kena mob.

urgh.....

standbymode adalah penyeksaan untuk keuwww.

WRITTEN AT:6am


Update:CONFIRMM NAIK LAUT T_T



2- Tak period lagi.Dah  3 minggu since 11/8.Sebab i ovulating tat day.Ehh kelakar pulak bila ingat..sembang dengan hasben "saya tengah subur ni.cepat!"

Cepat ape?paham paham la kan..

Tapi sebab penat kenduri along kami Zzzzzzz .hahaha

ai xberharap sangat sebab xnak frust.hehe

juz kalau in 2 weeks time upt positive..memang kenangan yang xdapat dilupakan :)

Submit formal application(doa) kat Allah bulan ramadhan..Approval dapat bulan Syawal..aint it sweet?

Aminnnn.

Written at 6am.


UPDATE: Harini ai singgah farmasi...hajat di hati nak beli upt kit untuk wat bekalan check nextweek.

Pikir pikir balik..ehhh minggu ni xcheck lagi la upt..

Breast dah start sore tapi xla sore sangat...baru 3 hari start sakit...

So ai pun g kencinggggg...


RESULT:

1LINE CONTRO CLEAR...1line pudar pink pink untuk test..

Wauw.amazing..

False positive ke...?


SAma sama kita nantikan...minggu depan!!!!!


Kalau ada baby..mommy want to say hi to u my dear baby!mommy have been waiting for u histerically for the past few days!!!!!

Eventhough u are still young...21days old...and anything can happened to u now...mommy will patiently wait for u sayang...

Please grow up faster and develope all ur essential blood vessel...eyeball ke...vital organ semua...then u must grow healthily ok..


Now ai think  i sound like so tanjung rambutan.

Hahahaha.

Tunggu je la next Friday kita test lagi...tengok line ape pulak naik..

Till then...


Keep on praying for me my beloved frens!

Friday 23 August 2013

Sayang going offshore again

Here we go again..



Prepare the calendar and start the countdown..

Sayang,i noe our life seems more being alone than we being together..but my love for you is unconditional sayang..

I love u here...there ..or anywhere..

20days countdown starT...i noe u have your countdown calendar too..

Muahs!:)



Wednesday 21 August 2013

AM I PREGNANT????

Haii..

First of all...Selamat Hari Raya ai ucapkan to all my fellow bloggers here.

gambar gambar raya berdua for the first time.


AUWWWWWWW so suwitttt :)






Sorry tau sebab xupdate.

terasa lembabb je nak ngapdet.

Tajuk kontroversi.Sebab nak tarik korang baca.

Hahahahah

Ok i am very calculative about my period cycle.

It has never been late for 14days including today.

I am hoping that i am pregnant.Since the timing was right.Fertilization might occur between 4/8- 11/8 which i presume IF (hurup besar  tu) i am pregnant..it will makes me 2 weeks pregnant la.

Implantation might occur during during Hari Raya time or Hari Raya weeks thus explain my gila penat dan mengantuk.

But my UPT is negative.



So make it go to the Hypothesis 2:I am not pregnant but having a hormonal imbalance problem.

Kawan kawan...doakan saya ya?;)

"I pray for Ayeen so that she is actually REALLY pregnant Allah.Amin amin Ya allah"



I will wait for my period to come and if in 2 weeks time it is still absent...i will be going for a checkup witj OBGYN n see if miracle do happened to me!!!!

Kalau i am not pregnant, kemungkinan besar ai miss my period sebab hormon imbalance atau pun sebab pertambahan berat badan yang mendadak..

I am at my gemukness stage now..

Setiap tahun sejak ai berumur 25 tahun...berat badan akan naik 2kg..lepas tu berat akan constant xnak berubah..tahun ni..berat ai OMG!!!!!!!




Gila kannnnnnnnnn.

Pipi pun dah macam belonnnnnnnn



Ai am trying to be positive..


Sebab UPT Negatif tau..

Banyak jugak baca dalam google..ada orang tu period xdatang..upt pun negative..alij alih rupanya dia pregnant lepas buat ultrasound..

So skang ai nak tunggu lagi 2 minggu la ni..

Doa doa tau?

Another gambar before i turn into mommy.....or turn skinny if i am not preggy i will hit the gym!!!!!!


Hahahahaha





Bijak x?Sebab ai gemot so baju raya kalew hitam.hehehehehe



Lets start counting !!!!!!!





Tuesday 6 August 2013

Gemuk bersama



Hepinya hasben dah balik!He was back home on last 4th So hip hip horey!Dapat raya pes taim.bersama!

So perkara first y ai notice is my hubby dah kurus.Even waaaay kurus dari zaman nikah!And waaay nampak macam boypren girlpren je kalo kitorang jalan wuwuwuwuw.

Hasben janji nak gemok sama sama.

wuwuwuwuwu

Pressure betul!



Anyway sekarang jam 1048pm hasben tengah tido sebab dia nak drive balik kedah nanti.

ai am not yet sleepy.

Nanti ai tido dalam kereta ok

to those y akan balik beraya..i wish u save on the road.

Selamat Hari Raya 2013 you olss

muahs muahs

Friday 26 July 2013

When u are not around




Dear husband,

I have finally realized that 90% of the entries in this blog are either about you or how i cope with being without you..

Hehe

Even 7f u r not here with me...i can feel your presence sayang...

Counting the days to be with you..

Friday 19 July 2013

Countdown countdown to meet u Husband ;)






You tahu i miss u kan sayang?



tak sabar tunggu u balik..Nak bersahur..nak berbuka..nak g tarawih sama sama..nak pergi pilih makanan berbuka kat bazaar...nak pokaikan u pilih baju raya nanti..

Paling xsabar dan syahdu skali nak cium tangan u as soon as u arrive safely..

lobe u and mish u my dear..

11 more days to go!


Saturday 13 July 2013

ARGH XDE BAJU NAK PAKAI!!!

Bila ai cakap cmtu kat hasben...hasben mesti buat muka simpati..


i rasa dia xikhlas..

Tapi sebab bini mengadu kan..layan ajelah..

Bila tengok almari sendiri..rasa macam banyak sampai kena ada 2 almari..


tapi kenapa kita still rasa xde baju nak pakai ek????



anybody got solid answer for this situation?????




Saturday 22 June 2013

IZZUE ISLAM VS MY HUSBAND

Ya allahhhh hensemmmnya Izzue!!!!Dah 2 3 minggu i stalker.

Stalking instag tweet Izzue hahahahaha



Nasib baiklaaa Izzue dah kahwin jadi xrasa guilty sangat.

And he is waaay younger than most of us kan!!!!



lepas tuuuu meh compare dengan hasben sendiri...






Hoh..HENGSEM NYE HASBEN I!!!!!


lagi hensem dari Izzue..

Yang penting....DIA SEBENARNYA SUAMI SAYA!!!!!



PS:dasar mata keranjang..yang hensem anak anak ikan nampakkkk aje...;p


Monday 17 June 2013

Rindu yang membahagiakan.

Sebelum ni pun selalu ditinggal tinggalkan..

Masa tu i selalu nangis sebab rindu..

Kalau hasben (waktu tu  boyfren n tunang) pergi selalunya 2-3 weeks..hari ke 9 ai dah start nangis..
Betapa fragile nya perasaan..

Sekadar husband away paling  cepat 3weeks..So paling lama he away 6 weeks..tapi i sikit pun xnangis lagi so far..

Betapa tabahnya perasaan seorang isteri..

Nampak x beza di situ?nampak?

Teringat kata kata bff Mek Kay siang tadi..ayeen dulu psaiko!psaiko giler!

lepas kahwin dah ok banyak..Rupa- rupanya perkahwinan memang sesuatu yang membahagiakan..

lagi best dari kapel..
kapel asyik makan hati..psaiko fikir benda bukan bukan..

sekarang kalau rindu pun rasa bahagia..

sebab everything yang kita rasa..kita tahu..kita layak dan berhak terhadap rasa rindu tu..

Terima kasih Allah kerana jodoh ini..

terima kasih Allah kerana rindu ini membahagiakan..





Thursday 13 June 2013

Release letter FINALLY!!!

Alhamdulillah...kita merancang...tuhan bagi rezeki..


akhirnya ai dah dapat release letter dari Bank Islam.Semoga hidup saya tidak akan dihantui hutang kredit kad lagi amin!!!!!!

1 down, 1 more to go!

Cantikkan kredit rekod!!

Eiiii tak malunya ai cakap pasal ai ada blacklist..nak canang 1 Dunia ke ayeen?

 i have made the mistake.loong time ago. and i am rising up to face my mistake and to make it right.

YES i have 5k debt.but you know what?duit boleh dicari jika anda berusaha.

i spend RM K' throughout my  5  recent years in my life .i bought stuffs..i spent on foods..i spent on holiday and shopping.but i never feel so free and satisfied and grateful like this last K's that i used up to pay my credit card debt.

what is to shame about when u face and accept your mistake and fight it front?

Tuesday 11 June 2013

Berhati-hati bila berurusan dengan kaunter bank!

Disclaimer:Pengalaman ini adalah pengalaman saya sendiri.Sebarang informasi di dalam blog ini tidak boleh diguna pakai terhadap saya di mahkamah.


Ai buat lump sum settlement untuk akaun kredit kad yang tertunggak sekian lama di Bank Islam.

Banyak sejarah hitam dengan bank ni dari awal bahagian kad kredit ditubuhkan sampai la sekarang.

Bukannya anti bank islam atau nak buli pihak mereka dengan kisah ini tetapi sebagai teladan dan pengajaran kepada orang lain supaya lebih berhati-hati ketika di kaunter bank.

Disclaimer kedua: Tragedi ni boleh berlaku di bank-bank lain juga tetapi sila beri lebih perhatian jika ianya Bank Islam.(Pendapat peribadi.Hak kebebasan bersuara).

Pada 21 May 2013 ai dah ke kaunter bank islam sunway damansara bertujuan untuk menjelaskan amaun tertunggak yang terkumpul semenjak tahun 2009.Ai mampu bayar sekarang.Dulu masa ai terhegeh hegeh naik turun mahkamah sebab nak merayu kepada Bank Islam yang ai tak mampu nak bayar sekaligus,Bank Islam tetiba cakap kat pendaftar nak setel luar mahkamah.Pffttt..sesia saja bawak kes konon bagi notis ke mahkamah.buang masa betul.

ai sedar ai pakai kad secara membuta-tuli .Bila dah insaf dah terlambat.Tapi selama 5 tahun tu memang Bank Islam asyik kacaula.Biasala.

Disebabkan ai dah naik ke mahkamah dan Bank Islam nak setel luar mahkamah..i ignore setiap pembayaran dan nama ai memang kena blacklist.Masa tu belum ada flexi payment.Bodoh Bank Islam ni..2008 ai pakai maybank ok aje ada flexi payment..bank islam agak mundur dari segi kemajuan masa tu( dan sekarang pun-(personal opinion from experience).

Jadi lepas dapat komisyen haritu,ai tekad untuk hilangkan Bank Islam dari sejarah hidupku dengan buat lump sum payment.

Rupanya ingatkan dah selesai.

Pada 11 Jun 2013 Ai call bahagian kad kredit,pegawai bertugas cakap duit tak masuk pun????

Ai pergi ke Bank Islam Sunway Damansara semula dan dapatkan salinan slip.( guna taktik kata slip ai hilang..).

Memang tepat la seperti yang dijangka..mereka salah masukkan dalam kad orang lain.

Selepas i beritahu pegawai yang sama yang salah masukkan duit tu, beliau xberkata minta-maaf dan tidak menghubungi ai semula untuk inform duit tu dah masuk atau belum.Dengan ego la kot beliau..ai senyum dan cakap thanks.

(Thanks sebab tidak berterima kasih..tidak meminta maaf..tidak mengaku salah pihak bank..tidak memberi sebarang penjelasan apa sebenarnya yang berlaku dan tidak double check pun kesilapan).

Jadi Cik Norehan, Tunggu surat rasmi Complaint dari saya atas ketidak profesionalism awak.

kalau saya berhati busuk, saya akan pergi buat report polis ditujukan kepada awak.Itupun kalau saya kejam la.


Jadi pengajaran ni bagus untuk ditujukan kepada diri sendiri.Jangan percaya bulat-bulat dengan pegawai di kaunter bank.

ai belajar dari kesilapan dan u guys hopefully jangan tersalah buat kelalaian macam ai..


UPDATE:Ai hubungi Cik Norehan pagi tadi dan beliau cakap beliau cuba hubungi ai 2x untuk pemberitahuan dan masuk ke voicemel.

Apabila ai tanya,"salah siapa?" beliau menjawab,"salah saya,no akaun hampir sama".
Pegawai beliau akan hantar surat ke email i soon-katanya.

Jadi ai terima permohonan maaf tu but i will not delete my entry on this matter.I want it to be a lesson to all people who are reading this entry..and who will read it soon.








Monday 10 June 2013

TTC..husband away..weight gain..Ramadhan

Hye guys,

Sekarang i tengah cuti..dalam otak ni berserabut..

Husband balik for 6 days ago dan dah selamat pergi semula yesterday.
Until we meet again ya hubby..45days and counting..

TTC:I sedar mungkin dulu sebelum kawen i ada TERcakap "lepas kahwin nak enjoy dulu 1 tahun"..so i rasa sekarang..ini masanya i kena betul betul Walk the Talk.I think tuhan dah Granted my wishes la..:) Tq tuhan..we often forget to say thank you Allah to all of the things that He already gave..we (I) usually ask and ask for more!

So Allah I will stop complaining..i will stop the negativity and enjoy this precious 1 year of leisure that u promise me :).

Baby, mummy dan abah akan jumpa u tahun depan ok :)

Weight Gain:Berat unggul sebelum kahwin memangla 52 .Tapi itu bulan 6 tahun lepas!Bulan 6 tahun ni 55!Apasal lepas kahwin orang cepat gemuk??

oh ya. I got the answer actually.hahaha.

makan makan makan.buat baby.makan makan makan buat baby.

PENTIPU!itu u ols.

i kesian ok.

Husband away so list i adalah makan makan  akan makan makan makan makan leoas tu baru buat baby.itupun kalo x peyod. :p

So nasib baik Husband dah away.Dah janji dengan husbamd nanti the mext time u see me..i will be as skinny as tje day we wedmHahaha

masa wedding i was at 49 and berat memang xnak turun dah.Dah usaha gegeh sanggup berlapar sampai mumtah hijau totap berat 49.

So dengan.ketiadaan tukang makam time puasa
.i pasti kurus.haha

Ramadhan:Sedih jugak sebab husbamd xada untuk sbut 1 Ramadhan pertama kami lepas kahwin ;(.

ah sedih la.xnak tulis dah.

tsk.tsk

Wednesday 5 June 2013

Travelog_Taman Botani Shah Alam( Bukit Cahaya)

Lepas menghabiskan sepetang dari pukul 2pm - 4 pm di muzium, kami meneruskan perjalanan ke Taman Botani Shah Alam.



Harga Tiket masuk: RM4
Harga Sewa Basikal: RM10 untuk sejam
Waktu masuk: 8am- 530pm

Kami sampai pukul 430 petang jadi kami cuma ada masa yang cukup cukupp saja untuk berbasikal kat situ


Mak dah ditinggalkan kat stesen bawah.Mak pancit!














Selepas penat melayan main basikal,kami pun balik rumah.

Phewww punyala penat layan bebudak ni.Tunggu la ada anak sendiri nanti time cuti sekolah..huiiiii mati!mati!


Anyway,since hubby balik for 1 week only..kami planning nak ke Bukit Gambang Resort weekend ni.

Bilik dan everything dah ditempah.Tunggu nak pergi saja.

Jadi kalau termasuk 2 minggu lepas dan minggu ni, 3 minggu berturut-turut ai jenjalan.

Phewww~~~