Berpantang_Day 1

2/9/2013

Harini ai ke Tropicana lagi...

Ada follow up checking dengan Dr Arifah untuk tengok samada ada lagi sisa sisa baby dot tertinggal kat dalam..

Sebenarnya harini pun rasa pelik..bangun tidur tadi rasa blank..terus pergi dapur minum milo lepas tu bukak peti ais tengok baby dot..


Hai la baby..harini mommy kena jugak panggil sesiapa untuk bawak baby dot dan pergi kebumikan kat kawasan perkuburan..
Mommy xde experience dalam hal hal.mcm ni tapi thanks to google..mommy dapat info:macam.mana nak kebumikan baby dot:

Mama Fie temankan ai pergi Tropicana.She is 6 months preggo and looking at her..i cant help to feel a bit like a loser..

She got a very handsome boboy Zidane who is 2 1/2 years old and is now expecting ..

She never plan for any of her pregnancy..

i on the other hand..Work hard for it..and  it does not go the way i want it to be..

Sometimes what we want is not being delivered the way we want it to be..I guess God is actually trying to say

Ayeen,im sorry i granted ur wish but took it back..It is not yet your time to be a mommy..Soon you will under
stand..I will give you something better to replace something that I have tool from u today..

i will God..Some day..Some day..



Alhamdulillah Dr Arifah said there is no.need for D&C  and that makes me feels relieved.

D&C cost  can be around 1k-3L depending on the hospital.

i was given antibiotic and Dr assured me that i can try to conceive again in 2weeks time or whenever i feel ready..

its actually really assuring when u noe there is nothing wrong with yourself..right after u misscarriage..

petang sket..Abg Jam dan Kak Dila datang untuk ambil baby pergi kebumi di kawasan perkuburan dekat Bukit Beruntung..

So bermula la hari pertama pantang..makan bubur..ikan haruan..dan sayur sawi saja.

Semua semua Mama fie dan Hani yang sediakan..

Hari Khamis ni ai balik kampung la.Xnak menyusahkan Mama Fie lagi dah..

Pernah x rasa macam normal..lepas tu tetiba rasa sedih?

berulang ulang kali?Thats how i feel today..

Hopefully perasaan ni akan beransur ansur tenang.Amin....